I want...

I want to write better.
I want to start using my brain power again.
I want to cook dinner every night.
I want to learn Photoshop.
I want to refresh my photog skills.
I want to get a pedicure.

These things have been nagging at me the last few weeks. They have not been passing thoughts, whims, fancies or fleeting ideas. They have been in my head all. the. time. I have recently started following a handful of bloggers and in doing so I was reminded of my past where I was well-spoken, put together, accomplished, and interesting. I feel like I am none of these things right now. I am a Mommy. This is of course the most important thing I could do and it really is fulfilling.

But...

S-Monster is older now and I am starting to feel the pull of a non-infant centric life again.

I need to remind myself to take time for myself. And then do it.

This blog may never be read by more than me- but in publishing these wants in the concrete cyber arena maybe I can hold myself to working on my list. Maybe I will start to feel like myself again. Maybe, just maybe I can chip away at creating that Balance that I have heard so much about.